I am Clay Jensen

I am worried, nervous, anxious
I wonder how I contributed to Hannah Bakers death
I hear Hannah's voice at night telling me that my name is mentioned in one of her 13 tapes
I see
I want to find my tape and find out how I contributed to Hannah's suicideI am worried, nervous, anxious

I pretend that everything's okay when in reality, I'm going insane
I feel the urge to keep searching for my hidden tape
I touch
I worry that my contribution was far worse than everyone elses
I cry because I'm scared of what the tape might say
I am worried, nervous, anxious

I understand that in a way, I am guilty of her death
I say to myself that I didn't really contribute to her death. That maybe it's a thank you for helping her when she needed it
I dream about that one hidden tape and what it might say
I try as hard as I can to look for that tape non-stop
I hope that my tape isn't anything truly bad or that could make me feel even more guilty
I am worried, nervous, anxious